As the tears fall down my face.
I’m slowly breaking inside.
Trying so desperately to be perfect
Failing so horribly ending up someone I don’t want to be.
All the hurt and anguish I bottle up and put a smile on my face and act like it don’t hurt.
But in the inside I’m breaking, falling to pieces.
All this pain I don’t know how to deal with
Eating me up inside till there is nothing left.
And all I want to be is truly happy without all the pain they cause.
I’ll keep lying to myself and them appearing to be happy when I’m not.
But I have special things in my life that keep me going.
Without them I’d fall apart.
It only took years of bottling up all the hurt and his harsh to realize who I was.
I am the person I tried so hard not to be and yet failed.
All I want is to finally be free